Find My Passion.

I have learned that sometimes it is necessary to pick your battles. Look at what you are fighting for, who are you fighting, and where their intentions are. Is it really worth it to waste emotions over this? Is it going to negatively or positively affect anyone’s life? I feel that I am constantly trying to insight change.

Some people are just brought into your life to challenge you and to make you realize that some things just aren’t that big of a deal. Life goes on. If no one will listen to you, who cares, keep your integrity and just back down.

I think that my experiences have taught me many things and one of those is to re-evaluate my priorities.

Sometimes it doesn’t take a large event to make you look back, but a million tiny events to finally realize that you can make a change. I believe that my intentions are in the correct place and that if I am given the right opportunity I will be able to create greatness.

I use the word greatness, very loosely. When I state the word greatness I consider the video I created for PSGAD one of my examples. I’m not saying that it was the best designed and cohesive info graphics. What I am saying is that after I created it I was bursting with pride, the feeling that I may have helped someone. If one person saw that video and it helped them through the day or it made them think they can make it, I did something right. That pride, the feeling that you are doing something right and helping someone is what I want to continue to strive for in everyday life. I feel as if I joined organizations on campus to help further my resume for internships, jobs, and experience. While I have been given great opportunities for all three I think I have lost my purpose behind it all, to feel that pride.

Internships have clouded my judgment in what I need to get from my life. I feel that in the process of trying to stand out and make my resume pop with all of my experience I lost myself. What do I want? Here is a bulleted list to explain.

- Help People
- Use graphic design, everyday
- Work for an advertising agency
- Continue to raise money for things that matter to me

Now don’t misunderstand this message. It is not saying that I do not want the internships I am applying for, that is the one thing that I do want. What I am trying to say is that, I am frustrated with the fact that I have to stand out so much when I should have just realized that myself is enough. I am one hell of a passionate individual and I fight for what is important to me. I don’t want an advertising agency because of the money or the clients. I want a job there because it gives me that pride, graphic design is my passion and I would love a chance to even learn a bit about how it works to make sure it is where I belong.
I need to stop trying to please everyone and think what does someone want from me. I don’t need everyone to like me, because I have enough people that love me. My opinions may alienate some or even offend others, but that is the joy of it. It is my opinions and my projects.

I hope you enjoyed my random train of thought. Can’t understand it?

Sparknotes version.

I need to start finding what gives me that pride and get back to doing stuff that was important to me, also nail a killer internship.